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Dolls, Clowns, and Mirrors

Simple fears

We have all known

They never really leave

Never leave us alone 

Turn around

Don’t look too long

The eyes possess you

A power so strong 

They whisper 

Embrace with siren tones 

There is no escape

You looked too long

Simple fears

We have all known

They never really leave

Never leave us alone 
4/21/17

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Who Am I

I lost myself

So I thought

No not true

Who was I

Who am I

I don’t know

Have never known

I just know

Who I yearned 

To be

Anyone but

Me

4/21/17

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My Old Friend

My old friend 

Blood

Is back

Foolish of me

You’re

Not gone

Foolish of me

Thought

You Dead

Caked up blood

Sticky 

Open wounds 

Lie in wait 

Devil

Not gone

Each wound deeper

Than 

Times before

Rob me of

Joy

Like before 

Pretend to know

Joy 

Like before

2/24/17

The Day I finished Vocational School

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“Those who can make you believe absurdities, can make you commit atrocities.”― Voltaire

No Title

Looking at your picture

My eyes fill with tears

I wish you were here

I find myself smiling

You would remind me

That I am strong

Give good hugs

As only you 

Can do

December 25, 2016

387 days since my dad departed

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This Hole

 

This hole
Consists of
Half smiles
Fake smiles
All the while
Hanging on

This hole
Consists of
Desperate measures
Angel feathers
Twisted tethers
Hanging on

This hole
Consists of
A mother’s love
A father’s love
Memories of
Hanging on

 
December 2016

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Supposed to be

Is this how life
Is supposed to be
I was 54 two weeks ago
For the last 11 days
I have been 24
How many times am I
To start over again
Is this how life
Is supposed to be
What is the lesson
I don’t see it Lord
Nothing you have shown me
Makes me want to
Keep living
In all honesty
I feel I have 
Never lived

9/8/16

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Keep your judgements to your fucking self. Until you have walked in my shoes, swam in my head, you don’t know what it’s like to breathe through my lungs. If you can’t be a shoulder, just move on…